Victor Butt Open Diary - Patiently Optimistic

4.06.25

Alright Diary,

Thing's are looking interesting and boring at the same time,

I'm making decent progress with some of my physical goals and have some positive things the look forward to,

Yet feeling stagnant with my career goals and future prospects.

Now 31, I feel a huge amount of pressure that I should achieved a certain amount of life goals with my work and personal life but upon reflection it's not from a lack of trying and life is not a tick sheet as much as my autistic brain would like it to be.

No one knows what is around the corner, In fact I recently thought I was on a much different path to the one I'm on now and still slowly dealing with the juxtaposition and realignment of what I want in this world.

Part of me is telling me to keep plugging away posting shit to promote my music and methodology breaking down what I want to achieve.

However creatively and spirituality my heart is pulling towards adventure at the current point, life is for living and if I can save enough to experience what the world has to offer then I'd be a fool to fight against it and myself.

I travelled quite a bit in my late teens and early 20's giving me memories I'll never forget, and there is so much of this world I am yet to see and learn from and that excites the shit out me.

Gratitude and hindsight is key for me at this present time, I have so much love and respect for the people around me blessed to have the friends and family I have and upon reflection despite the struggle and pain I'm glad to have new opportunities emerging that wouldn't of previously been.

Much love

Victor