New year lets see

01/01/25

Alright Diary,

Christmas is now over and I've thoroughly enjoyed seeing friends and family over this festive season. Watching films and having a cheeky beverage but as the year ends it's it a bold reminder of what's to come, work and career aspirations, physical goals and habits to break.

But if there's anything I've taken from winter break, is the power of stillness, often I find that I distract myself, killing time until the next day without processing the previous day, no time time to educate myself for a better tomorrow, give myself time to be creative and taking in new information.

I'm no fucking guru this is open diary format is for myself to learn from more than anyone, what may seem obvious to you could be a big learning curve for me, and some things can only be experienced not taught, that being said I don't tend to set new years revolutions, no judgement to anyone who does, but instead on a by weekly basis I will write daily goals to get small tasks done that will add up over time.

This is no success story or guide for anyone but for me it gives me structure and balance between working towards my goals and enjoying the small things in life.

I actually started this small micro tasking and goal setting after being written off work about 6 years ago in my mid twenties, I had continued problems with depression and had repeat meltdowns and shutdowns.

After being written off I struggled most without anything to do to be busy, my friends and family told me I shouldn't be putting pressure on myself to do anything after recent events, but there's no guide to shaking depression and if you are struggling please seek a professional I am not a professional, I'm just telling my story.

Anyway I digress, after about a couple of weeks of binging Rick and Morty (I think it was weeks my mind was very cloudy) I started to give myself small achevivable tasks, I started very simple by writing walk, and ticking it off after completion, when I was ready I added another, I wrote write, in which at the time I was writing a comic and poems which over time would build to songs.

Month by month I very gradually had a nice selection of things to do, I knew I wasn't cured nor will I ever necessarily be, but things felt much lighter, I put less pressure on myself but was getting more things done I never thought I could of.

Anyway I'm on one hell of tangent right now, but my point being, it's better for me to set small achevivable goals that have me moving in the right direction then massive goals that aren't necessarily down to me but have multiple factors that are out of my hand.

Much love everyone and happy new year 🎊 🚂